Relatives

Today I received a call from my 3rd uncle and attended my dad's eldest sister husband funeral on behalf of my family.

I have met some of my cousins and know abit of the history of the older generation of why are they lost contact and the things that my mum tell me and the story behind.

Sometimes, I felt quite sad and disappointed why ppl have to have problems wif money and also status. It's juz complicated.

My brothers and I have never been close with my cousins. even if we meet outside or probably have some common frds we know...we juz wldnt know they are related to us at all. I see some ppl why can b close and have cousins to play with. I quite envy of them in a way. bt too bad ours is ended this way.

Now my cousins wish us to be contacted again. They said we are special case as in not bcoz of money thats y they lost contact. We are like very distant like tat. But I guessed we all have our own life to lives and busy with...it's juz an empty remark. We never been close and probably never will..I dunno..Coz in my bros and my life, we never had any relatives before.

The 1st time we met is aft my mum's death and met in the funeral. The 2nd time we met was at my grandfather's funeral. The 3rd time we met in at my eldest cousin, RoseMary's wedding. Now the 4th time was my eldest aunt's husband funeral.

RM's bro, Jeffrey said if all of our cousins have to meet in funerals. It will be so sad. Well, i guessed it's true. But what to do? We have lost contact for so long and never been have any common things to share before..so what esle cld we say? I can just treat them like how I treated my newly known frds..and get to know them from scratch.

We exchanged our contacts with my 2 eldest cousins and my so called young cousin, Nicholas. Let's see how we could start from here.

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Punctuality

Haiz Sianz...

Today I had a meeting at 11am, but I reach my workplc at 12pm..I m 1 hr late!!!

Tats very very bad I noe...but sometimes really cant help it...Y am I like tat????

Y cant I just change my lifestyle? or am I refuse to make the change? I juz hate it!!! Hate it!!!!

I was thinking of quitting my job and gave up on the way to my workplace and was thinking if my boss starts to have a talk with me...Bt she didnt. Perhaps she is busy bt I guessed 1 day she will bring up agn.

I am totally speechless...Dunno how to describe a person like me...LAZY is the word I think.

When can I be able to restart a new life out of me?? :(