OMG 13 YEARS!

Wow... I almost forget that I had this blog previously. Its been 13 YEARS since last posting. 😆 Since it has been this long period of time, of coz there are soooo much happenings in my life. The good and bad, ups and downs. Not sure where and how to start, but I am still alive. Thank God. 🙏🏻 Let's see.. Post when mood comes along. For now, Let's just be healthy, happy and good. Meow!🐈

Relatives

Today I received a call from my 3rd uncle and attended my dad's eldest sister husband funeral on behalf of my family.

I have met some of my cousins and know abit of the history of the older generation of why are they lost contact and the things that my mum tell me and the story behind.

Sometimes, I felt quite sad and disappointed why ppl have to have problems wif money and also status. It's juz complicated.

My brothers and I have never been close with my cousins. even if we meet outside or probably have some common frds we know...we juz wldnt know they are related to us at all. I see some ppl why can b close and have cousins to play with. I quite envy of them in a way. bt too bad ours is ended this way.

Now my cousins wish us to be contacted again. They said we are special case as in not bcoz of money thats y they lost contact. We are like very distant like tat. But I guessed we all have our own life to lives and busy with...it's juz an empty remark. We never been close and probably never will..I dunno..Coz in my bros and my life, we never had any relatives before.

The 1st time we met is aft my mum's death and met in the funeral. The 2nd time we met was at my grandfather's funeral. The 3rd time we met in at my eldest cousin, RoseMary's wedding. Now the 4th time was my eldest aunt's husband funeral.

RM's bro, Jeffrey said if all of our cousins have to meet in funerals. It will be so sad. Well, i guessed it's true. But what to do? We have lost contact for so long and never been have any common things to share before..so what esle cld we say? I can just treat them like how I treated my newly known frds..and get to know them from scratch.

We exchanged our contacts with my 2 eldest cousins and my so called young cousin, Nicholas. Let's see how we could start from here.

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Punctuality

Haiz Sianz...

Today I had a meeting at 11am, but I reach my workplc at 12pm..I m 1 hr late!!!

Tats very very bad I noe...but sometimes really cant help it...Y am I like tat????

Y cant I just change my lifestyle? or am I refuse to make the change? I juz hate it!!! Hate it!!!!

I was thinking of quitting my job and gave up on the way to my workplace and was thinking if my boss starts to have a talk with me...Bt she didnt. Perhaps she is busy bt I guessed 1 day she will bring up agn.

I am totally speechless...Dunno how to describe a person like me...LAZY is the word I think.

When can I be able to restart a new life out of me?? :(

Dear Lord Jesus +,

I prayed that my loved ones and friends, will be happy, healthy and wealthy.

I prayed that my loved ones and friends will chose to be with you in the near future.

I prayed that I can be happy, healthy, a little more wealth to manage a good financial planning.

I prayed that I can do well and live well in my Human life.

I prayed that I could have more faith in you.

I prayed that I could have a better life up there after Human life. I want to be with you Eternally.

In your Mighty name, Amen. +

Emo

......Erm...What shld I write??

I have alot to vent out bt dunno how to start...

I juz feel that I m getting less happier than the past.

I felt like I m hiding in a dark corner which cant bring me to see the beautiful world outside.

I really do hate myself sometimes.

I have tried to make it better but failed and never tried enuf...tat pc of motivation in my brain is weak and getting weaker...:(

I dun like to ask Lord, Why. Cos i noe things I experienced has its reason.

I tot being simple will be happy but y am I not??

I m not really pessimistic person as I always tell myself that there's always hope in life. or is it probably juz someting to console myself only?

Given many chances but none of them cherished by me I think. I dun remb what chances and dun ask me.

If I were to tell my stories, I have nothing to tell. Coz there is nothing great in my life.

Although I have my loved ones, my friends around me, but I still feel that I m a loner.

P.S.: I felt empty.

Altho very much wanted to do a photo blog..But nowadays the web was so dangerous to have our pics to be put up...

So, i have decided to make it a normal blog with words will do. juz for let out.

Well, see how..mayb will post up pics again when the mood is there.

Haha...:p

Hi all,

Here I am another 1 post aft so long...Things have not been very good nor very bad during this period of time.

Been changing my job since the last job from the co working for 7 years...From high paying job till now back to low pay job agn.

Haiz..Really dunno wat I want in life...feel lost..no passion in everything, juz do and work everyday doing the usual things. I guess it's life but also no life..Been thinking of improving my faith for GOD, Quit smoking, etc...But it seems I really cant do anything right for my future. So what is my future and where does it lies??? Somewhere or no where??

GOD always have a plan for everyone. Its juz we need to knock here & there to find out what is it for us.

May I find out soon. In + name I prayed, Amen.

Gdnite. :)

Welcome back....

Hi ppl...

I m back after 1 year plus...my last posting was last year Oct...

Have been bz with work and stuff..of coz new fav was Facebook...haha..

So, will c how agn to post here when I want to..keep my updates watsoever..

Now is 650am and I m going bed soon...gdnite..oops shld be gd morning...keke :P

Cya..Crazyneoprintgal....:)

Always be Strong, Positive and Happy :)

Dear..this is for you...

No matter what..we are all there for you..You must b strong and we will be stronger than you...

No worries..everything will be fine..be positive and dun worry so much..it wont do us any good..

Most imptly, you must speak up to us if you dun feel good...dun keep to urself..ok?

Stay happy & healthy as usual like the fat boy before..:)

Love ya...:)

Everything is going to be OK!!!

Today was a bad day...Received a shocking news this afternoon.

My heart sinks and speechless when it broke to me...I can only keep on praying & console him for the good...I know he is deeply sad and so do I..

We juz hope that everything will be fine...God, pls bless us...amen.

Give us strength..give us courage..give us hope...+bless+bless+

Nvr ever really tot it wld happen to us..altho I do have questions in our lives..suddenly tot of all the good & bad stuff we both had...7+ years of r/s..Our families, Our marriage, Our nest, Our dog & everyting.. :_(

I love you, swtheart. Pls be there for me/us.+